AMAZE! CATS CAN DRINK WATER ALL DAY AND PEE ONLY TWICE
DISGUST! HOT DOG EATING CONTESTS
DISGUST! HOW MANY AMAZING AND INSPIRING WOMEN HAVE LEFT THIS LIFE FROM BREAST CANCER
AMAZE! I’M STILL HERE
A little background –
Over the past few years my left implant has been fighting with my body. It was angry and felt like it was being pushed out while the right implant sat quietly where it belonged. My left boob looked like a DD and my right boob looked like a comfy C.
I had pain in my left side, pain when i bent over and twisted certain ways. My boobs were ready for an upgrade.
My cancer said OH NO! No upgrade yet, I’m having too much fun wreaking havoc on your body. No surgery yet. I still need everyone to worry about anesthesia. I mean really what’s the big deal about a little possibility of a brain bleed. DISGUST!
And then the stars aligned. Doc Onc, Doc Neuro and Doc Plastics all agreed that my scans were all good and I was ready for general anesthesia. AMAZE!
Oh and a benefit of all of this, I get a chemo break. A little time for my body to recover from the treatment side effects.
Off to New York Presbyterian – Weill Cornell – my home away from home since my original diagnosis in September 1998. Finally – NEW BOOBS!
The mystery revealed. Because I had so much radiation to my left torso, I had serious capsular contraction on the left side and essentially the buildup of scar tissue was pushing the implant out of the capsule. My scar tissue was a large solid block of cement.
Recovery. No lifting, twisting, strain of any kind for 2 weeks. Wear a really uncomfortable bra for 2 weeks after the bandages come off. WTF???? I haven’t worn a bra for 10 years. The girls are not happy but – they are healing and getting happier.
After 3 ½ weeks of being the perfect patient, my new boobs and I are free! AMAZE!
And now back to the chemo life. I actually was happy going to chemo again. As many of us know, a break is great but there comes a point where the fear of being unprotected starts to creep into your brain. Even my cancer eaten brain.
It felt like home. The receptionists, the secretaries, the nurses, the PAs,the docs. Everyone is family. If you have to have chemo, being in a loving supportive environment is essential (Lisa’s advice for the day). And of course I wore my FUCK CANCER! shirt to chemo.
4 weeks post surgery I am almost back to normal life.
I found this quote that touched my heart (near my brand spanking new boobs!):
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you’ve imagined. – Thoreau
We know none of us dreamed of getting cancer. None of us dreamed of watching the ones we love die of this awful disease. None of us dreamed of saying goodbye to women in the prime of their lives; women with so many more years to follow their dreams who ended up living a nightmare of cancer.
We all have different life goals and dreams. Whatever those dreams are, don’t wait, live those dreams.
WE HATE YOU, WE DESPISE YOU. DISGUST IS TOO KIND FOR YOU. CANCER YOU ARE A BLIGHT ON HUMANITY, WE WILL EVENTUALLY BEAT YOU. WE WILL FIND A WAY TO STOP YOU. AND WHEN THAT DAY COMES………………………